What I do when my pain won't fuck off?
Transcript:
Today I want to talk about what I do when I'm having one of those days where I cannot reduce my pain to a manageable level. So, the gist of this is that I literally have to practice the headspace that I'm going to be in or that I'm going to use when I'm having one of those days. And I realized that not the most intuitive thing in the world do I'm going to try and explain best I can So like many other people with chronic pain, I have this really long list of ways I use to reduce my pain: things like stretching or changing my posture or the way in sitting or pain medications or massage or heat. I have this long list so I'm I get kind of used to be able to like... not get rid of my pain but reduce it. So the days that I can't, that it’s just not going anywhere. It gets very panicky inside my head and it gets really hostile. I get like Angry my body and angry at the world and angry at the universe. So for those days, I need a space in my own head that I can go, that is relatively peaceful. So what my daily practice kind of looks like it's that for most of my day I'm allowed to do whatever I want to try and get rid of my pain. Bar crazy things of course, but for 10 minutes and 10 minutes only, I am not allowed to dry. I'm not allowed to shift my posture If I start getting uncomfortable, I'm not allowed to like, fiddle with my muscles, which I do, or massage something, I have to sit there and just sit with my pain. And then, because I do that everyday, everyday I sort of find little small ways to be, like, not comfortable, but just to be sort of present With it. Like, maybe I talk to it. Maybe I Envision it as a nice pretty shape. Maybe, I envisioned it as like a small kid, that's crying and needs comfort. And then when I'm having a really horrible pain day and I can't get rid of it, I already have this headspace that I can go to that says this sucks, but it's okay. We can sit here with this. Yeah and then that's useful on normal days as well, because it sort of overtime teaches me to be like, reasonably comfortable with pain just sort of existing. Like, not that, I don't try and reduce it or get rid of it on a daily basis. It's just, it makes that less emotionally stressful to be doing. So yeah, that's pretty much it. And this was so hard to put into words that I think other people will understand. So let me know if it was useful, let me know if you have any other questions? I'm personally finding this useful to have to like articulate what I do about disability things. So you know, let me know. Let me know what you do about your pain? That would be interesting.